happy new year?

i had a great time bringing in the new year... but when the celebration was over, my depression returned. i have a new client with an array of small animals that i've been sitting for over the past week. a couple days into it one of his mice died (she was very fragile to start)... and wednesday night, the worst came - when i found his rabbit had passed away. that morning she was fine - that evening she was gone. i keep telling myself that it was a fluke... an unfortunate coincidence... or "just one of those things that happen beyond our control"... but it doesn't make the pain i'm experiencing any less. i dont know how common this is or how many pet sitters experience these things, but its an awful awful feeling. and in the rare moments that you can actually believe that it happened... it makes you want to hang your leashes and go get an office job.

i won't go into any random details because both causes of death are not known - so whats the point of speculation?

anyway, i just needed to get that off my chest.

here's to 2010!!